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Friday, April 13, 2007

To a Friend:

I know your heart & i know how you feel.
You've treat me well; i know.
Facing you i'm confused & awkward.
You're a good friend.
I'm afraid to face or accept another person now.
Perhaps it's due to my previous one.
But i'm glad you still continue treat me as friend
& still cares to keep in touch with me.
Nice knowing you. x))





A few days ago, i received a message from someone unexpected.
Seeing who's the sender, my feelings were . . . thrilled ? angry ? or. . .?
I have no idea.

I just had this really weird feeling going on inside me.
It's complicated.
Wondering what's this message gonna be.
Pressing the button "open"; i read.
It's just the same old thing.

Asking for my forgiveness and hope to be friends.
Other than the word "sorry", there's nothing else you could add on.
My expectation went down.
So does my feelings.
That entire day i'm gloomed.

I don't really wanna be friends.
I'm selfish.
Being unreasonable and tempered.
Yet for no reason, i agreed.

I really detest myself for acting this way.
I hate my behaviour, my thoughts and my cowardness.
I'm acting so unlike me.
Is it the cause of you ?
Beats me.

I hating myself more than before.
Can someone please wake me up.
Wake me up from my disgusting dream.
I dont' wanna dream anymore.

Though it's pain, i still trust love.
Hoping to find another rightful partner.
And this time, i'm gonna be real picky.
Can that be you ? x))

Queen spoke at
9:49 PM

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Wow.. Time fly rreeeaaaaalll~ fast.
It's been a month now since what happened.
Geez, & can you all imagine i'm still clinging hope to it.
I mean for the past one month la ! lols
Now ?! i'm not sure.

Perhaps it's actually a habit for me.
A habit of having him by my side.
A habit of receiving his calls daily.
A habit of depending on him.
But NOW !! This habit has to change !!!
Get rid of this habit man !
I felt really disgusted just by thinking why on earth am i that depressed.
Disgusted on why am i still loving him after what he did.
Ewww !! ok enough !! I'm getting pimples on my arms already.
Or maybe, i'm just angry of myself.
Beats me.

Ok. Enough of the talking.
Coming right up are the pictures for these past few weeks.
Didn't really took much pics la.
Cos' i'm lazy to even take out my camera.
I'm even more lazy to doll myself up when i'm out.
I just merely had a few strokes of mascara & out i go.
Aiya, i'm lazy for everything now la. x))
Oops, did i talked too much again.
Okok i know, i'm long-winded.
Pictures !! (don't be shock if i look awful w/o much makeups.)


she's always the one who cheers me up.
although she always say, "aiya, forget him la !"
but i still feel comforted. loves x))
this is the only pic we took while that day we watched the "Haunted School"
@ 1.40am !!
of cos not ur only la, there's still her boyfriend & his friends.







remember one of the day we had cafe cartel for dinner.
i think is to celebrate an advanced birthday for my didi (above pic).

end of that day.


a self pic to start the day.
went to catch a movie the "Pathfinder".


the 2 idiots; one acting scared, the other acting gay. lols
& end of that day. not much pic taken. haha



er..dunno when take de. x))






These are last two day's pic.
End~!!

Queen spoke at
10:19 PM

Monday, March 19, 2007

Seems like we're really, really OVER.

;no longer lovers.

;never will be friends.

;you've walk out of my life & make them a history.

;though you've hurt me much, yet time will heal them all.

;never will i be crying over you again.

;i'll stop loving you & learnt to hate.

;that's to keep myself from remembering you.

;thus, i hate myself behaving like a weakling.

;But ...

;i think i'll be fine after a period.

Queen spoke at
9:06 PM

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Many times, in the middle of the night

I thought my ceiling's leaking

Looking myself infront of the mirror

My nose looks red

My eyes looks puffy

I felt horrible.

The trust, the secure, the feeling

I felt it no longer exist

It's all drifting apart

I feel no love.

Always pondering should i make this an end

Wanting to get rid of such agony

At the same time, i'm being irresolute.

You never knew how i feel

Always wanting Me to understand You

Can You ask yourself

What exactly have You done for Me ?

You've changed.

You took Me for granted don't You.

As I felt Neglected.

You no longer care bout my Presence, my Thoughts, my Love.

Well fine .

Let's End .

Queen spoke at
9:22 PM

Friday, March 02, 2007

Haven't been seeing and posting my blog for bout 10 days.
It seems SO DEAD ~!!
No tags, no posts. -dead (at least tag lah~)
But nevermind, as long as i'm free i'll try to update. x))
Cos' most of the time i'm busily working. *sighs
Though it's just 10 days, many things happened.
No matter in work, luck or love, there's something bad going on.
Don't wish to talk more bout it.
Maybe i should go temple and pray to get rid off those bad lucks.
Ok, pictures for the past few days:


-Before going out:





-Bought a new shades:










I LOVE THIS PIC!






-A pic before work:



is that me ?! cos somehow i find that i look different in here.



Just noticed that all pics i'm wearing the same colour. -black
Cos' my working place is only allowed to wear BLACK.
Not only my top is black, my bottom & shoes are black TOO.
I'm kinda getting sick of this colour. *shrugs

Queen spoke at
8:13 PM

Monday, February 19, 2007

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!

Though it's a new year, i find it quite boring.
It's the same old place i'm going every year.
Suddenly, i find my life's colourless; no life you see.
The only meaningful thing is to collect "ang-paos".
Ok, at least not bad for the money. *grins
But still, i've gotta stay blissful & jubilant.
K lah, enough of the ramblings.
Pictures time !!


Yesterday:




before going out.





that's my sister..x))

my "gugu" & my pretty cousin.

me & cousin. (my face sucks i noe.)

that's her bf.

saw that tall guy there ?! that's my "handsome-biaoge" lah !! xD

couldn't take all the pic of my cousins,cos too many ; shortcut here. while they r gambling.


my CUTE little niece. she's sooo uberly cute.jus then i realise i forgot to shoot their parents pic. x((























Today :

Was totally bored at home.
So we decided to go catch a movie.
The GHOST RIDER.
It's real NICE can !
But before that, we went to the "chun dao he pan".












during the car-journey.

reached. & there ! the always so famous "cai-shen". lols

the 2 noble person who created me !

I love her !

something found. the always so typical-singaporeans.queueing up for their bets.
*tsk-tsk



i love her too !

we're looking at...?!

on my way along, i saw this heel ! & i simply jus love it ! i'm gonna get it. x))

while waiting for the show to start.

that's the popcorn lah.but wat i wanna show is that's the next movie i wanna watch.


END~

Queen spoke at
11:40 PM